So much to say ... so little time.
Finished Workout 1 of Week 6 of my couch to 5K. Thought it'd be easier considering in the last workout you run 20 minutes straight and this one you get 2 3 minute breaks to walk. I was wrong. But I did it.
I watched part of a TLC show on half ton teens.
It made me sick, but mostly sad.
What a strange culture we live in. Not only that someone can die of eating too much, but also that someone needs to buy a machine to keep in their house to try and get fit.
Indeed a strange culture .... and I'm a part of it all.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Dreams coming true
Today I achieved something big.
Relatively speaking ...
I just ran 2 miles straight. I did not think I was going to do it.
But I did.
I've mentally been gearing up for the third workout of my fifth week of training for my first 5K run.
My last workout I only had to run 8 minutes and then I got a 5 minute walking break before running another 8 minutes. It was the longest stretch up to that point.
All throughout my training I've had moments where I honestly only kept going because I told myself (out loud) 'You can do this! you have to do this! You will do this!'
I have been determined NOT to quite, but rather to stay on task and complete the training that I had googled (couch to 5 K).
I knew mentally if I had gone off course or settled anywhere I'd just give up. As I mentioned before I almost gave up on Week 4 during the first workout. I thought I was going to die.
How did I go from barely getting through a mere run 3 walk 1.5 minutes to a straight 20 minute jog in a couple of weeks?
Perseverance, dedication, making promises to myself. I've kept going even when I have had longer breaks than I should have, even though I've been put back a few days by it, I'm still at it.
today there were 2 things that really helped me a lot.
first of all I went through my MP3 player and checked out how many of my favourite songs I had to listen to before I was done. That worked very well, except for the part where I miscalculated and ended up having to go 1 song longer.
The second thing that helped was the show I was watching called X- Weighted. It featured an 11 yr old girl who was 194 lbs that was trying to lose the weight with nagging parents at her.
This put me in the perfect frame of mind for my challenge.
I was that girl and this was giving me a chance to prove to myself, to that old me, that I could do the unimaginable (to me).
Surprisingly it wasn't that hard. I was shocked.
I almost cried a couple of times at the fact that I was doing it. That I did it.
Of course the greater goal of 5K lies ahead but in someways I feel as though I've already conquered it because of what I did today.
I made that little girls dreams come true.
And mine too.
Many more to come!
Relatively speaking ...
I just ran 2 miles straight. I did not think I was going to do it.
But I did.
I've mentally been gearing up for the third workout of my fifth week of training for my first 5K run.
My last workout I only had to run 8 minutes and then I got a 5 minute walking break before running another 8 minutes. It was the longest stretch up to that point.
All throughout my training I've had moments where I honestly only kept going because I told myself (out loud) 'You can do this! you have to do this! You will do this!'
I have been determined NOT to quite, but rather to stay on task and complete the training that I had googled (couch to 5 K).
I knew mentally if I had gone off course or settled anywhere I'd just give up. As I mentioned before I almost gave up on Week 4 during the first workout. I thought I was going to die.
How did I go from barely getting through a mere run 3 walk 1.5 minutes to a straight 20 minute jog in a couple of weeks?
Perseverance, dedication, making promises to myself. I've kept going even when I have had longer breaks than I should have, even though I've been put back a few days by it, I'm still at it.
today there were 2 things that really helped me a lot.
first of all I went through my MP3 player and checked out how many of my favourite songs I had to listen to before I was done. That worked very well, except for the part where I miscalculated and ended up having to go 1 song longer.
The second thing that helped was the show I was watching called X- Weighted. It featured an 11 yr old girl who was 194 lbs that was trying to lose the weight with nagging parents at her.
This put me in the perfect frame of mind for my challenge.
I was that girl and this was giving me a chance to prove to myself, to that old me, that I could do the unimaginable (to me).
Surprisingly it wasn't that hard. I was shocked.
I almost cried a couple of times at the fact that I was doing it. That I did it.
Of course the greater goal of 5K lies ahead but in someways I feel as though I've already conquered it because of what I did today.
I made that little girls dreams come true.
And mine too.
Many more to come!
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Feelin' good
Today I completed my first workout of Week 5 for my Couch to 5 K training. It feels so good to accomplish something - even though I'm not quite half way.
I find it very helpful to have a manageable goal to work towards.
I won't lie, I did almost die on my first workout of week 4. I made it through by the skin of my runners and at the end I laid down on the treadmill and just tried to catch some air.
Wally and I also have returned to our clean eating lifestyle. This also feels good. great actually.
Now I just want to get back to my strength training. However I know my mind would get overwhelmed and decide that my body can't handle both. It's such a mental thing I think. I really want to reach my 5 K goal.
In March, or after our trip to Thailand in March, I plan to sign up to do yoga for beginners once a week. I am so excited! I even got a yoga mat for my birthday!
Last fall I did something called a 'PATH', well someone did it for me. It maps out all of your dreams and goals, things you want to achieve or experience.
Many of mine related to my body. I wanted to become a runner - I am on my way. I wanted to try yoga for at least 3 months - it's in the works. I also wanted to become a certified personal trainer - that is a definite possibility. I am actually on a waiting list to do a personal coaching lean eating certification. IT happens in March (the registration) but only 200 are accepted so I'll have to wait and see. I believe it is a very rare and sound course that I could truly develop a good business with.
We'll see what happens.
Well, gotta go catch up my other blog! Toodles!
I find it very helpful to have a manageable goal to work towards.
I won't lie, I did almost die on my first workout of week 4. I made it through by the skin of my runners and at the end I laid down on the treadmill and just tried to catch some air.
Wally and I also have returned to our clean eating lifestyle. This also feels good. great actually.
Now I just want to get back to my strength training. However I know my mind would get overwhelmed and decide that my body can't handle both. It's such a mental thing I think. I really want to reach my 5 K goal.
In March, or after our trip to Thailand in March, I plan to sign up to do yoga for beginners once a week. I am so excited! I even got a yoga mat for my birthday!
Last fall I did something called a 'PATH', well someone did it for me. It maps out all of your dreams and goals, things you want to achieve or experience.
Many of mine related to my body. I wanted to become a runner - I am on my way. I wanted to try yoga for at least 3 months - it's in the works. I also wanted to become a certified personal trainer - that is a definite possibility. I am actually on a waiting list to do a personal coaching lean eating certification. IT happens in March (the registration) but only 200 are accepted so I'll have to wait and see. I believe it is a very rare and sound course that I could truly develop a good business with.
We'll see what happens.
Well, gotta go catch up my other blog! Toodles!
Friday, February 18, 2011
31 :)
Well, it's my 31st birthday today.
Last year I met Dee for the first time the day after my birthday, so tomorrow it'll mark 1 year of training.
Am I in a different place than I was a year ago? Absolutely.
Have I learned a tonne about nutrition and fitness? No doubt about it.
Am I on my way to realizing my realizing my goals in these areas? I think so.
Do I have a long way to go still? Most definitely. BUT, I WILL get there.
It's hard sometimes to see yourself fall back into old habits so easily when it took so long to kick them. It's generally then that people give up on the whole thing, allow themselves to go back to their old lifestyle, call their ultimate dreams 'too far fetched' and forget about everything.
Not me.
Though I want to I won't. I can't. I've come too far to do this.
That being said, I will admit that this journey, for me at least, is no cake walk (sorry I had to do it!).
I have to say that when I see people that appear to have been successful the first time around AND have reached their goals within a distinctly shorter period of time than I, it's very easily to raise a white flag and give in.
I just can't do it!
This doesn't make me special just stubborn.
I truly believe and know deep down that we have the power to overcome. People overcome way worse things than getting healthy and fit. I think the secret maybe is believing we have this power.
I started nearly 4 weeks ago training for my first 5 K run, even though my food choices are far from perfect right now, I am struggling with emotional eating and I feel as though there's a crowd this time watching me potentially fail. I did my first workout of 'week 4' last Sunday and thought I may physically die right then. I was gasping for air, my lungs were burning, and I ended up lying on the treadmill in a prayerful position by the time I had finished.
But. I had finished.
I was wondering how I would ever do the next workout. I was dreading my body proving to me for a second time that this wouldn't be easy. I was fearing another episode like the one just experienced.
However, today, on my 31st birthday I will put on my running shoes and do workout 2 of week 4 and pray to God that it is a little easier the second time around.
My hope for this year in regards to my body is that I will treat it with love and respect. That I will free it from my abuse. That I will strengthen it in new ways that will last a lifetime.
Because I want my lifetime to be long and healthy.
I am thankful today for my body and it's health. That it works and that I can do all that I can with it.
I shall raise my glass and toast my body today - to another year of better health and conquering the unimaginable (at least for me!)
Cheers!
Last year I met Dee for the first time the day after my birthday, so tomorrow it'll mark 1 year of training.
Am I in a different place than I was a year ago? Absolutely.
Have I learned a tonne about nutrition and fitness? No doubt about it.
Am I on my way to realizing my realizing my goals in these areas? I think so.
Do I have a long way to go still? Most definitely. BUT, I WILL get there.
It's hard sometimes to see yourself fall back into old habits so easily when it took so long to kick them. It's generally then that people give up on the whole thing, allow themselves to go back to their old lifestyle, call their ultimate dreams 'too far fetched' and forget about everything.
Not me.
Though I want to I won't. I can't. I've come too far to do this.
That being said, I will admit that this journey, for me at least, is no cake walk (sorry I had to do it!).
I have to say that when I see people that appear to have been successful the first time around AND have reached their goals within a distinctly shorter period of time than I, it's very easily to raise a white flag and give in.
I just can't do it!
This doesn't make me special just stubborn.
I truly believe and know deep down that we have the power to overcome. People overcome way worse things than getting healthy and fit. I think the secret maybe is believing we have this power.
I started nearly 4 weeks ago training for my first 5 K run, even though my food choices are far from perfect right now, I am struggling with emotional eating and I feel as though there's a crowd this time watching me potentially fail. I did my first workout of 'week 4' last Sunday and thought I may physically die right then. I was gasping for air, my lungs were burning, and I ended up lying on the treadmill in a prayerful position by the time I had finished.
But. I had finished.
I was wondering how I would ever do the next workout. I was dreading my body proving to me for a second time that this wouldn't be easy. I was fearing another episode like the one just experienced.
However, today, on my 31st birthday I will put on my running shoes and do workout 2 of week 4 and pray to God that it is a little easier the second time around.
My hope for this year in regards to my body is that I will treat it with love and respect. That I will free it from my abuse. That I will strengthen it in new ways that will last a lifetime.
Because I want my lifetime to be long and healthy.
I am thankful today for my body and it's health. That it works and that I can do all that I can with it.
I shall raise my glass and toast my body today - to another year of better health and conquering the unimaginable (at least for me!)
Cheers!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
It's in me
I don't want to do this.
Admit that I'm struggling big time. Especially since I struggle a lot.
I have admitted my recent serious struggles with food. Really it's just sugar.
I seem to be seeing the end in sight and in light of this I've been eating everything sugary I can get my mitts on, somehow knowing that an end HAS to come.
It's weird that even though I know what I should do I don't do it. Paul (in the Bible) had that issue with the crap in his life he struggled with. I guess we're a lot alike.
I had coffee with someone today that I used to teach piano to. She's currently in school for health and fitness (something or other). She will come out as a personal trainer and other stuff.
She's never ever struggled with her weight, she knows nothing of that side of things. But she's still interested in nutrition and such.
I found it very interesting to talk with her about the topics of health and fitness. I was also intrigued by the fact she's been in school for 6 months and had yet to really know what 'Clean Eating' is.
I realized how different each of our perspectives was on the same topic, how varied our experiences and motives were. She can't understand why her mom, who wants to lose a few pounds, asks her how to lose the flab, yet when she tells her to cut cream out of her 4 teas a day, her mama says 'That's the one thing I really enjoy'.
I understand where her mom is coming from but know too that it takes a moment of realization of the difference between wanting to look good in a dress and caring about what you are actually putting in your body.
Both can help you look good in a dress but one is long term and the other, 90% of the time carries you to the goal and takes off when the party's over.
I know I've said this before (maybe in my other blog) but I now that I have a special connection with people who want to lose weight, people that have struggled their whole lives. I know because I am.
I have every intention of gaining the lifestyle I want. Of acquiring the skills I need to succeed and be a great example. I have it in me and I am fighting to live that way.
Currently I have fallen down and I am trying real hard to clean the dirt out of my wounds and get back up. I am so thankful for what I've learned, because of it I have hope.
It's kind of weird writing knowing no one is reading. I feel the freedom of not caring if I sound like a broken record. I think I'll keep writing here in secret for a while. I like it :)
Admit that I'm struggling big time. Especially since I struggle a lot.
I have admitted my recent serious struggles with food. Really it's just sugar.
I seem to be seeing the end in sight and in light of this I've been eating everything sugary I can get my mitts on, somehow knowing that an end HAS to come.
It's weird that even though I know what I should do I don't do it. Paul (in the Bible) had that issue with the crap in his life he struggled with. I guess we're a lot alike.
I had coffee with someone today that I used to teach piano to. She's currently in school for health and fitness (something or other). She will come out as a personal trainer and other stuff.
She's never ever struggled with her weight, she knows nothing of that side of things. But she's still interested in nutrition and such.
I found it very interesting to talk with her about the topics of health and fitness. I was also intrigued by the fact she's been in school for 6 months and had yet to really know what 'Clean Eating' is.
I realized how different each of our perspectives was on the same topic, how varied our experiences and motives were. She can't understand why her mom, who wants to lose a few pounds, asks her how to lose the flab, yet when she tells her to cut cream out of her 4 teas a day, her mama says 'That's the one thing I really enjoy'.
I understand where her mom is coming from but know too that it takes a moment of realization of the difference between wanting to look good in a dress and caring about what you are actually putting in your body.
Both can help you look good in a dress but one is long term and the other, 90% of the time carries you to the goal and takes off when the party's over.
I know I've said this before (maybe in my other blog) but I now that I have a special connection with people who want to lose weight, people that have struggled their whole lives. I know because I am.
I have every intention of gaining the lifestyle I want. Of acquiring the skills I need to succeed and be a great example. I have it in me and I am fighting to live that way.
Currently I have fallen down and I am trying real hard to clean the dirt out of my wounds and get back up. I am so thankful for what I've learned, because of it I have hope.
It's kind of weird writing knowing no one is reading. I feel the freedom of not caring if I sound like a broken record. I think I'll keep writing here in secret for a while. I like it :)
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
I'm back!
Well, it's been almost 7 months to the day since I've posted on this blog.
Wow!
I have done quite a bit of writing surrounding my struggle with Eating Clean yet also regarding my clear passion for doing so.
I actually have to laugh at myself a little as I am currently teaching a Clean Eating class to raise money for a charity yet right now I am struggling more than ever with it since starting my journey 7 plus months ago.
I have learned so much in the past 7 months. About how to best Eat Clean, about my abilities to do so, how it can affect your relationships and the difficulties of doing so in social situations (less because you want to and more because other people seem to hate you for it).
The current lesson I'm learning is how easy it is to let denial come in. How easy it can be to slowly, little by little, let go of the positive changes that were so difficult to make.
As I sit here I can say with full confidence that I believe 100% in Clean Eating and that it is possible to do so (for anyone) and be successful, that it doesn't have to be a lifelong struggle. But at the same time I must be honest and tell you that I have not done it long term yet.
In the past 2 months since buying our house and moving away from our gym I have struggled greatly with weight training and slowly but surely the sugar binge eating has reared it's ugly head.
I find myself trying to fight the mental battle and figure out it's intent at the same time.
I don't believe I am a failure and that's not what I'm here to say. I just want to be honest that you can seem to have a problem completely solved, an addiction apparently kicked only out that it's something you must commit to for life, NOT a certain number of days, weeks, months or even years.
I may or may not end up writing again in this blog. We will see. I have full intentions on mastering Clean Eating and the lifestyle of a healthy person (in every way). It just may not happen overnight. But that's ok.
I have learned that just because I didn't get to my goal of a completely clean lifestyle in 6 months doesn't mean it's impossible or that I won't do it in the next. As long as I am here I have every power in my to make the right choices. The fun part is making them.
Maybe I will write again here ... we'll see. It may just be what I need to plow my way to success.
I know that I can.
I can :)
Wow!
I have done quite a bit of writing surrounding my struggle with Eating Clean yet also regarding my clear passion for doing so.
I actually have to laugh at myself a little as I am currently teaching a Clean Eating class to raise money for a charity yet right now I am struggling more than ever with it since starting my journey 7 plus months ago.
I have learned so much in the past 7 months. About how to best Eat Clean, about my abilities to do so, how it can affect your relationships and the difficulties of doing so in social situations (less because you want to and more because other people seem to hate you for it).
The current lesson I'm learning is how easy it is to let denial come in. How easy it can be to slowly, little by little, let go of the positive changes that were so difficult to make.
As I sit here I can say with full confidence that I believe 100% in Clean Eating and that it is possible to do so (for anyone) and be successful, that it doesn't have to be a lifelong struggle. But at the same time I must be honest and tell you that I have not done it long term yet.
In the past 2 months since buying our house and moving away from our gym I have struggled greatly with weight training and slowly but surely the sugar binge eating has reared it's ugly head.
I find myself trying to fight the mental battle and figure out it's intent at the same time.
I don't believe I am a failure and that's not what I'm here to say. I just want to be honest that you can seem to have a problem completely solved, an addiction apparently kicked only out that it's something you must commit to for life, NOT a certain number of days, weeks, months or even years.
I may or may not end up writing again in this blog. We will see. I have full intentions on mastering Clean Eating and the lifestyle of a healthy person (in every way). It just may not happen overnight. But that's ok.
I have learned that just because I didn't get to my goal of a completely clean lifestyle in 6 months doesn't mean it's impossible or that I won't do it in the next. As long as I am here I have every power in my to make the right choices. The fun part is making them.
Maybe I will write again here ... we'll see. It may just be what I need to plow my way to success.
I know that I can.
I can :)
Monday, July 19, 2010
2 Weeks Clean
Another week has passed and it has gone well. For the most part.
The week started out with me on the road for a couple of days doing something for work but I went prepared! I packed my little cooker full of healthy snacks and home baked goodness (clean of course) for the trip. I bought only one meal while out and was able to make a healthy choice.
This week I lost 1.3 pounds!
I have to say how shocked I am as I felt that it is seeming really easy.
To boot I only visited the gym 1 time! (not braggin' just saying ... my trainer wouldn't be impressed).
This all goes to show you that it really is what goes into your body when.
Some new foods that I just recently cooked up was Picadillo Chicken (super yummy!), and Apple Sauce Banana Bread (haven't tried it yet, it's in the oven). Along with baked oatmeal that has proven to be a delicious breakfast for sure.
As for desserts, Wally made Chocolate Mousse out of Tofu and a dark chocolate bar. It tasted like dark chocolate bar. We found that it was more palatable with strawberries added. It would make a good addition to a trifle.
Oh and 'Breakfast cookies' are amazing. Like amazing!
Now I have to come clean about something (excuse the pun). I visited home this past weekend and knew it would be an issue. As soon as I walked through the door goodies from all around were calling my name. I waited for a while and decided to partake. So, I partook.
Right away I realized that the homemade chocolate squares tasted a bit waxy and not all that great. Unfortunately I tasted a few before I decided I didn't need them. I withheld from the chocolate bars hidden in the fridge and anything else processed. For some reason I have brain washed myself about processed foods. something I don't mind.
I continue to pursue my clean eating and look forward to what this week brings.
The week started out with me on the road for a couple of days doing something for work but I went prepared! I packed my little cooker full of healthy snacks and home baked goodness (clean of course) for the trip. I bought only one meal while out and was able to make a healthy choice.
This week I lost 1.3 pounds!
I have to say how shocked I am as I felt that it is seeming really easy.
To boot I only visited the gym 1 time! (not braggin' just saying ... my trainer wouldn't be impressed).
This all goes to show you that it really is what goes into your body when.
Some new foods that I just recently cooked up was Picadillo Chicken (super yummy!), and Apple Sauce Banana Bread (haven't tried it yet, it's in the oven). Along with baked oatmeal that has proven to be a delicious breakfast for sure.
As for desserts, Wally made Chocolate Mousse out of Tofu and a dark chocolate bar. It tasted like dark chocolate bar. We found that it was more palatable with strawberries added. It would make a good addition to a trifle.
Oh and 'Breakfast cookies' are amazing. Like amazing!
Now I have to come clean about something (excuse the pun). I visited home this past weekend and knew it would be an issue. As soon as I walked through the door goodies from all around were calling my name. I waited for a while and decided to partake. So, I partook.
Right away I realized that the homemade chocolate squares tasted a bit waxy and not all that great. Unfortunately I tasted a few before I decided I didn't need them. I withheld from the chocolate bars hidden in the fridge and anything else processed. For some reason I have brain washed myself about processed foods. something I don't mind.
I continue to pursue my clean eating and look forward to what this week brings.
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